Zena

Break ups, who needs em!!:( It's horrible going through it, your emotions are everywhere and you feel sad, lonely, upset etc etc etc, it's a different story looking back though, isn't hindsight an absolutely marvelous thing!! Mike and I broke up (for the last time haha the on off stormy story that it was for you guys!!!) a good few weeks ago now and although I was initially upset and sad and all the rest of it, I soon realised it was for the best (I wont go into that one!). anyway right now I am having a ball and have never been happier, it helps having good friends, a close family, lots of essays to write and work to do, plus a sexy irish guy to take you out and make you laugh! I guess everything does happen for a reason, the whole saga has taught me a few lessons anyway!! All I can say to you both is keep smiling and enjoy yourselves, hope you are not too sad for too long :)

Cool, sounds interesting cant wait!! You know me kiddo, love a bit of goss!

It's just the dreaded hangover that I dont wanna have especially tomorrow!! Thanks for the advice

Anyone hitting the town tonight?? dont know what to do really, going meeting my mate who I havent seen in a while for a few, but do I hit the town later or not??? decisions decisions?? will only end up being rough tomorrow??

Merry Christmas xxx

Very true!! I got the album from my boss a couple of days ago and I can't stop laughing!! not that I am either of the above but I know a few who find it absolutely hilarious! Northern Birds is great!!

The first time either having my hair cut or dyed enters my head, I go out the same day and do it, then two weeks later I will start complaining, ooooh I want my hair long again or oohhhh I want my natural colour back. It's pathetic!! I even bore myself with it now and I know that I will complain two weeks later but still go out and do it!! Us women eh!!

Nice, but has been naughty at times. Neatness and politeness have been very good over the last two weeks. Shows proper respect for others. Shares well, but could always be better. With a little more effort could be near top of "nice" list. I am always naughty:devil:

I wont be, thats one thing for sure!! I am angry with him right now and I want him to hurt as much as I do but I know when that anger has gone there wont be many feelings I have left for him, the way he has treated me!! and he is telling me not to be nasty with him!!! it's a bit of a joke really because he doesnt really know what he has done and when he does realise, if he actually does have any feelings for me, then it will hurt him so much but not half as much as he has hurt me! He probably thinks that I will just take him back when he is ready but he has got a serious shock coming to him because this time he has gone too far in proving I mean absolutely nothing to him!! I have got a date lined up anyway so Im looking forward to that and spending time with people who don't wanna mess me around and play with my feelings, instead spend time with people who are actually interested in me! People might say it's too soon for dating etc but it's the best way forward in my eyes, no point crying over spilt milk, especially when it's as sour as my ex!!!!!! And that's me off my soap box lol, I'm feeling ok really, by hurting me this much he has stopped me from ever going back to him again and for that I thank him, guess something good does come from everything bad, I might have ended up having his kids and all the rest of it, but now I can move on easily and gracefully and never look back, hurrah!! And his mate didn't want anything, he is just more grown up than my ex and obviously was able to see things from both sides!! Thanks James, you have been so so so great, Gemma doesnt know what she is missing, you are really understanding!! thanks for listenin to me

Just thought I would give you an update on the relationship front!! I know it’s an entertaining read but it hurts like hell inside! Went out on Saturday night with a couple of the lads from work, saw my ex out with a couple of his mates. At first he ignored me so I went over to say hello and we were chatting, as you do, then he went. The next place we went into he came over talking to me telling me how much he had missed me and loves me and how he wants to sort things out with us, how much I mean to him and how great a future he wants with me blah blah blah. He didn’t leave my side all night, kept on saying all this sh.it and was hugging and touching me and then he kissed me and told me that everything would work out and we would talk and sort things out. Obviously I didn’t think for one minute that he was lying or doubt that he didn’t mean it. Stayed at his house and woke up the happiest girl in the world, until he tells me he doesn’t see us getting back together as we can’t just carry on where we left off?? He came out with a load of old balls, stuck a few crocodile tears in for effect and basically told me everything he said the night before is how he feels and he is finding it really hard at the moment and wants to be on his own (it’s funny how alcohol can turn you into a liar isn’t it!!) Anyway the pearler that he came out with next was ‘You didn’t have to come back to mine’ and proceeded to tell me his feelings and how hard it is for him, me myself and I!!!!! I didn’t have to go but he made me believe he wanted to sort things out with me then he turned around and told me he didn’t want any of it. nice! I feel completely betrayed and hurt so much inside you wouldn’t believe, what I don’t understand is if you truly love someone why would you do something like that to hurt them, there’s only yourself who knows how you truly feel, so why would you do something to hurt them anymore than they are already? Don’t get me wrong I am no pushover and I don’t suffer fools gladly, but what a nasty trick to play!! Messing with someone’s feelings and heart! he has done me a favour really cause I would never have known what a selfish, hurtful person he really is if Saturday’s events hadn’t have happened and it’s helped me see him for what he really is and not all the bull he comes out with when he wants his own way!! I really did think the world of him and loved him with all my heart, now I feel nothing for him but pain inside and hope that when he sees me with someone else he feels the pain that I feel now! What I really think is he doesn’t want me but doesn’t want anyone else to have me either, his best friend even told me I was too good for him!! It just goes to show that no matter how much you think you can trust someone the only person you can really trust is yourself! Anyway sorry for the essay but other people’s lives are just so interesting, I’m sure you have enjoyed the read! Z xx

Meeting up will not happen, like I have said nothing will be done to show me just how important I am to him, I am willing to sort it but Mike isn't and that confirms the reason I ended it in the first place. I know your upset about silly comments Mike but maybe you should look at what advice you are getting this time, like you have all the times you have posted about us! I sincerely apologised to you for the way I might have made you feel, when I knew what things in a relationship were important to you and I have told you I always want you in my life, so if I mean that much to you do something about it!

Walking and talking will not happen for definate, I am willing to sort things out but Mike isn't, I cant do anymore!!

If someone isnt prepared to listen to you and someones feelings are not important to you then there isnt much point talking!